V-Day

So, remember HERE when I said that I love hearts and flowers and romance? Can I change my mind? Tomorrow is Valentine's Day, my first Valentine's Day without a Valentine in 8 years...a day that I never thought would happen. Not that Terry and I ever did anything big for Valentine's day, more often than not we didn't do much at all, but it was still having someone there that loved you whether it was February 14th or September 14th or any day in between. Tomorrow is just another reminder of everything that I have lost and I don't know how to handle that. I miss being loved, being held, being romanced. I hate that every time I turn around I am being shown something that I don't have...and may never have...an anniversary, an engagement, people in love, newlyweds, families. It breaks my heart.

I wish that when I blogged I would magically have the answers to my problems. That I could write about what is hurting me or making me sad and then have some profound solution that fixes everything. I don't. If you do feel free to share :)